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Rachel Kirkwood

First Dose of Moderna on 2/06/21 Lot #007M20A

Second Dose of Moderna on 3/06/21 Lot #001A21A

Bay Area, California

Q: What was your life like before you got the vaccine?

I was a healthy 26 year old, super active. I was working out between 4-6 days a week. At the beginning of the pandemic I was hiking 2-4 times a week. I was working as an activist at the time. I painted almost every day too.

Q: What was your reaction, symptoms, & timeline?

After the first dose, I only had minor symptoms that I didn’t attribute to the vaccine at the time. Just some light itching on my skin and a little extra sneezing. About 30 minutes after the second dose, the fatigue set in. Then muscle aches, severe headaches, tachycardia, difficulty breathing, muscle weakness, post-exertional malaise extreme anxiety, fevers, night sweats, sinus pressure, brain fog, and so much more. I had no appetite, couldn’t eat, and lost 10 pounds in March because of it. I genuinely thought I was dying. I cried every day, several times a day for months. I also developed some new symptoms later like vomiting and what I call “internal vibrations”. Slowly but surely my symptoms started to improve. At the time I’m writing this, I’m 8 months out and between 85-90% better depending on the day.

Q: What was your life like after you got the vaccine?

I had to quit my activist gig after trying to hang on for 7 more months. I just felt like my body couldn’t handle any in person work, and I wasn’t even able to sit up at my remote desk most of the time. I stopped painting for months. I only recently started painting again- yesterday. I live in California, and during wildfire season, my lungs became so inflamed. Inflammation everywhere, all the time. I had to stop eating most of the things I enjoyed due to new food sensitivities. I was unable to walk around, stand for too long. At the beginning I had a hard time even showering by myself and was bed bound for about 2 months. Even though I’m getting better, I can’t wait for my life to go back to normal. It’ll still afraid of “slipping back” and relapsing again. The relapses are the scariest part. It’s also just super lonely. The vaccines were so politicized so I was being censored online. I could tell some of my friends felt uncomfortable when I told them about my vaccine injury. It was also hard just being stuck inside for so long, feeling like no one understood. It was hard to watch everyone I loved vaxxed and living life while I was in bed by myself. I always asked myself “why, me?”

Q: Share your experience with any medical care and any diagnoses you have received:

A lot of gaslighting. Doctors either told me there’s nothing they could do, or that it was “anxiety” and refused to treat me seriously. All my tests came back normal. The only doctors that acknowledged an issue were Dr. P and holistic doctors. A lot of us injured in my support group on Facebook (me included) turn to herbalism, Accupuncture, and other holistic methods because Western medicine refuses to acknowledge us.

Q: Was your reaction reported, and what was the response?

It has been reported. I reported it every couple of days in the V-Safe mobile check-ins. Also reported it to VAERS and Moderna. No response from any party. Moderna followed up and asked me to fill up a bunch of paperwork, then stopped following up. I filled out the same form for them probably 3 times. It’s frustrating.

Q: Is there anything that has helped, and have your symptoms improved?

Liposomal Glutithione, meditation and breath work, hyperbaric oxygen therapy, ozone therapy, seamoss, shilajit, black seed bitters, resting, and an anti-inflammatory diet. I also can’t stress how important removing stressors from my life was for my recovery.

Q: What do you wish others knew?

This is real, I exist. My story is not “misinformation”. If it’s happening to me, it’s happened to others. We want acknowledgement and treatment. I would love to have a Covid vaccine I feel safe taking in the future. We want transparent data and solutions. This honestly was the scariest and most difficult time in my life so far. I wish it never happened, even though I learned a lot about myself during my recovery.



Inger Grape
Inger Grape
May 26, 2022

Oh Rachel, I am so sorry to hear this! This is Inger -- my son Haakon told me. You've learned the hard way that they lie, and lie some more; they lie till they start to believe it themselves, so they start to sound believable to reasonable people. Detoxing the metals is going to be necessary -- have you looked into zeolite? There are good and bad ones -- I can help clue you in if you're interested. And ivermectin -- it is anti-cancerous, anti-viral, VERY anti-inflammatory, and has no side effects.


Hi Rachel! I'm so sorry for your suffering! Our group, Workers & Students for Choice, want to offer you our support and also hope that you'll work with us to organize locally against vaccine mandates. We're meeting weekly in San Francisco and Oakland. Please connect, if you feel inspired and able:


Unknown member
Nov 13, 2021

Having followed vaccine or 'jab' injury for a decade or so, it does not get any easier watching on as this recent wave of people are suddenly confronted with a hidden side to life that has been obscured for many decades. All the best and thanks for sharing this tough experience.

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